Quiet, but not quiet
Published on 15th April 2025 
Estimated Reading Time: 2 minutes2025 has not been working out for me as I might have hoped. The return to freelancing is not going smoothly, and is weighing on my mind. Thus, I have not been able to make use of the interludes of sunny weather like I would have done last year or in preceding years.
A disappointment was enough to prompt weekend visits to Edinburgh and London that were worthwhile. Beyond that and fleeting visits to my place in Ireland, I have not summoned the energy to venture into the countryside as much as I did around the New Year period, when I even embarked on a day trip to Killarney before a spell of wintry weather confined many of us in Ireland. A preceding amble around Kinsale took me along muddying paths, yet granted the fresh air respite that I needed at the time. Blarney was another place that offered much on brief incursions.
A fit of January hubris had me booking a North American holiday that I have now cancelled. Though the deposit has been lost, that was not much anyway and used up points that I had been accumulating. The extravagant delights of being sojourned in Toronto can wait. If anything happens during the summer, it is more likely European, given all the ongoing upheaval. The need for marketing and education is luring me to Geneva for a week in any case.
A possible client engagement could have taken me to Lausanne for a site visit, only for their deciding to go about things another way. The market in freelance work is proving challenging. A preceding fear of getting bombarded, like I did nearly seven years ago, thankfully has come to nothing. Desolate recollections of how things went on the transition from university to work are haunting me now as I consider my options for the future.
Nevertheless, the Easter weekend is coming and may offer chances for wandering in some countryside. That depends on what weather we are given and my freeing up my mind for at least a while; lulls, once seen as respite, now feel like desertion. A time when one could plan further in advance is behind us for now.
